By: Megan Wordsworth, Guest Blogger September 1, 2015
Sometimes you have to step outside of the person you’ve been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you want to be. The person you are.- H.G. Wells
Coming from a small town, my dreams of moving to a big city were exactly that, a dream. I never in a million years believed that I would set out to make the dream a reality. In fact, the dream was my escape from reality to a dream world. This dream world included a big city lifestyle like that of Blair Waldorf and Serena Van Der Woodsen. Not only that but I imagined that I would be confident in myself and all of my insecurities would disappear. Essentially, I wanted to conquer the world!
Flash-forward a few years and that dream of mine is becoming a reality. I landed my dream internship in New York City for the fall. Instead of being ecstatic, I am terrified. I have felt guilty because of my fear. If this is what I wanted, why am I so scared?
I lost sleep for weeks over the anxiety. I have slowly come to realize that that is completely normal. It’s o.k. to feel nervous about uprooting from my small coastal community to the biggest city in the country. For so long I felt that I had to have it all together, but I don’t.
In fact, I still do not have that confidence that I thought I would have. I still have a lot of insecurities, and I am accepting that. I hope that this internship program can be a learning experience for me. It is an opportunity for me to be pushed past my comfort zone.
Do not let fear stop you; instead, let it motivate you to face it.
Being scared is completely normal. Sometimes, a little fear can be healthy. It means that you are about to step outside of yourself to grow in to the person you were meant to be all along. I am not saying that the process will be easy, but it will definitely be worth it. Even the worst scenarios can be turned into opportunities to grow and mature.
Do not let fear stop you; instead, let it motivate you to face it. In the end, it will be worth it. I hope you know that this isn’t easy. I am partly writing this for myself. But always follow your dreams and take every experience as an opportunity to grow into the person you were always meant to be.
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Megan is a student in the Honors Communication program at the University of North Carolina in Wilmington, with the hope of gaining a career in the Entertainment Industry. As Vice-President of the North Carolina chapter of Project Heal, Megan is on a mission to spread positive body awareness. She has also worked as a background actor on the sets of Revenge, One Tree Hill, Under the Dome, Sleepy Hollow, and Nicholas Sparks’ The Longest Ride. She spends her free time baking delicious gluten free treats and watching reruns of her favorite show, One Tree Hill.
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