By: Lorene Belotti, Guest Blogger
I recently quit my job, took the plunge, and faced one of my biggest fears: jumping into the “non-control” zone.
It was a hard and long decision to make especially because I was super afraid of myself. I feared not being able to find a new job soon enough, being different, and feeling worthless. I was scared of my emotions but I was so wrong.
It’s been nearly a month since I left the office and I feel incredibly good. It’s like my vision became clearer. Not only am I not anxious, but quite the opposite: I feel free and full of hope when before I used to go home angry at the whole world. Now I understand and see all the opportunities and possibilities that are in front of me, the ones I was too busy to perceive before. I have time to test myself, to read, to look for information about jobs and/or companies that interest me, to realize that there are way more amazing things and people in my area that I could ever imagine, and I have time to think about ME: what I want and love, what I’m able to do, what inspires me, and who I want to be. I am refocusing on myself and my desires.
As soon as I made the decision to quit my last job, I was proud of me but so scared I immediately chased other job advertisements and applied for them. Consequently, I had a job interview last week and had a flash while I was trying to sell myself: what was I doing? Trying to convince people I was the right person to do a job I knew was not for me. Pushed by my fear when I applied, I wasn’t focusing on the essential: my will. Now, my fear isn’t controlling me anymore and it has completely changed my point of view.
I realized being serene, confident in my future and my abilities, and not overwhelmed by the situation is way better to make good decisions. Fear isn’t supposed to rule my choices or my life, I won’t let it. It’s good to stand back for a while before making any big decisions.
Running into the first job opportunity in order to be employed wasn’t wise. Of course, it was a good training but at this point, content is more important than form. The thing that matters the most for me is to trust my gut and listen to my heart to figure out who I am NOW and what I REALLY want to do. I stopped applying to every job ad I saw. Today, I only apply when I’m able to project myself in the position and it sounds awesome. I’ve decided to enjoy this transition time, to be confident, positive, sure of my success in the close future and glad because as Voltaire said: “ I’ve decided to be happy because it’s good for my health.”
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Lorene is a French observer and learner of life. She’s been working as a salesperson and a marketing assistant for four years to learn the ropes of the business world. She used to be a sports journalist while doing her Master’s degree and she loves writing and telling stories about great people too much not to go back to her first love soon. She lives in the French Alps, and loves to try to solve the world’s problems while having a great meal with her loved ones. She is passionate about foreign languages, self-development books, American TV shows, and people. Oh, and she’s a total nerd of Academic studies (when she’ll win the lottery, she’ll go to Harvard).