Stand In the Sun, Let Go of the Dark

By: Megan Minutillo, Regular Contributor

You’re so good to me.

I don’t know why you’re so nice to me.

You’re beautiful.

You’re so good to me.

I don’t know why you put up with me.

You’re beautiful.

Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful.

It echoes. The good words. The kind words. The pretty words. They echo and bounce around in your brain and in your heart and in your psyche until you’re at a loss of what to say. You’re at a loss of how to react. You’re at a loss – cause you can’t begin to feel anymore.

They echo. The words of those long gone. The words of those who have hurt. Words are the greatest weapon, and they so often leave the mark worse than any knife or bullet.

There is no medicine that can heal that wound faster.

I never said you were beautiful.

I never wanted you to put up with me.

I’m the giver.

I’m the listener.

I’m the good one.

It’s amazing sometimes, how things can shift. And morph. And change. And people want to remember only the convenient things – the moments that will leave their conscious clear and clean and sparkly and new.

It does no good for any person to feel as though they’ve hurt another – no matter how dark that soul may inherently be – it’s not in human nature to want to hurt.

So we wipe the slate clean. And we block out what has been true. We block out what has happened – and it’s in an effort to preserve our own psyche. It’s in an effort to survive.

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I never said you were beautiful.

I never wanted you to put up with me.

I’m the giver.

I’m the listener.

I’m the good one.

Not you.

My dear sisters, if you’re on the end of this venom – I urge you to think about who is spewing such hatred – it’s likely that that is not someone that you wanted to be around anyway.

For your heart, well, it’s precious.

And there will be people who take advantage of your good graces, your open heart, and your willingness to help and heal and embrace.

But when the lion comes out of the sheep’s clothing – take that as a sign to leave. Remind yourself that sometimes, people are not who they first appear to be. Remind yourself that it’s not your fault, that your heart was in the right place, and that you are not to blame for another’s misguided actions. Acknowledge the pain, the hurt, and the time that was spent, but then be done with it.

Wash your hands of all that has transpired, and go stand in the sun.

Because really, who wants to live in darkness?

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Sometimes it's hard to know when to stay and when to go, especially when it comes to important relationships. If you're feeling conflicted, take a few minutes, get quiet, and really search your heart and ask: "is this person standing with me in the sun or pulling me into the shadows?"

About Megan

Megan_Minutillo-Megan_Minutillo-0117.jpgMegan Minutillo is a playwright, director, and founder of the arts and education site, The Write Teacher(s). Her articles have appeared in HelloGiggles, So Worth Loving, I Am the Modern Career Girl, and Glass Heel. She is currently at work adapting her show, Ghosts in My Vodka, into a musical.

 

 

 

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