By Megan Wordsworth, Guest Blogger October 13, 2015
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Today, I started my first day at my new internship in NYC. I have never lived and worked in a big city all on my own. I have stepped entirely outside of my comfort zone. I went from a town with a population of 49,000 to one with 8.4 million!
Before I left my hometown to come to NYC, I was absolutely terrified! I have always wanted to live in a big city, but it had only ever been a dream. I never imagined that one day it might happen. Shockingly, I was practically kicking and screaming to stay home! Right before I left, my family got the news that my grandmother had a very serious case of ovarian cancer, and that she probably didn’t have much longer. It definitely made the decision to come and live out my dream a lot harder, but everyone kept encouraging me, even my grandmother. I battled back and forth with the decision, but I knew in my heart that I needed to leave. I had to; I might not ever get another chance. So I took it.
I had to; I might not ever get another chance.
The first few days were exhilarating. Everything has gone extremely smoothly. I know that is definitely the Lord’s doing; I would not have even come if it was not for His hand in all of this. I have already taken the city by storm walking endlessly for miles upon miles and being the typical tourist. I have actually come to the point where all I want to do is crash. I am coming to realize that I put way too much on myself in such a short amount of time.
My internship itself is also a wonderful opportunity, a dream internship really, but it can also be extremely exhausting. Being thrust into such a new environment after spending my last weeks at home in a hospital with my grandmother, finally took a toll on me. I realize now that it is perfectly acceptable to be overwhelmed and exhausted. I have been propelled into an entirely new environment with new people, and I’m still dealing with high emotions from my grandmother’s recent diagnosis.
Emotions are not permanent destinations; they are ever changing.
I’m writing this for anyone who is on a new journey, feeling alone, or just struggling with life. It is completely acceptable to be overwhelmed at times. Emotions are not permanent destinations; they are ever changing.
During this new chapter, take time for self-care. Explore a new neighborhood, treat yourself to a coffee, take yourself out to eat, or just take a long walk in nature. Before you know it, this new chapter will become your new routine, and eventually a new chapter will come along. And you will miss this routine! Enjoy the moment!
Megan is a student in the Honors Communication program at the University of North Carolina in Wilmington, with the hope of gaining a career in the Entertainment Industry. As Vice-President of the North Carolina chapter of Project Heal, Megan is on a mission to spread positive body awareness. She has also worked as a background actor on the sets of Revenge, One Tree Hill, Under the Dome, Sleepy Hollow, and Nicholas Sparks’ The Longest Ride. She spends her free time baking delicious gluten free treats and watching reruns of her favorite show, One Tree Hill.
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