By: Lauren Rodriguez, Guest BloggerNovember 3, 2015
Let me start this piece by hitting y’all with some real talk from Amy Poehler:
“Take your risks now, as you grow older you become more fearful, and less flexible.”
I’m constantly afraid. I’m my biggest critic, and I’ve found that I’ve become more fearful as I’ve gotten older. I’m not sure how it happened, but one day, I just found myself doubting myself to the point where I felt paralyzed. I still have days like that, and it’s work for me to take risks, put myself out there, and summon up the fearlessness that I felt in my younger days.
Taking risks and getting out of your comfort zone can be terrifying, whether it’s something as simple as confronting a friend, asking someone out, or going on a job interview.
Let me share some of what I consider to be my biggest fear-butt-kicking moments.
As a college freshman I auditioned for a lead role in the biggest production– which was pretty gutsy for a freshmen. I was intimidated because I knew I was up against some amazing talent. I got understudy for the lead (bummer!) but the director was so incredibly impressed with me, as were my fellow actors, that they all told me how they were blown away. Eventually, the lead actress had to drop out, and I ended up being the lead anyway! Then I won the best actress award that year.
I’ve broken up with people I’ve cared deeply for because I knew they weren’t right for me. That takes guts and it’s scary and ugly and hard.
I’ve traveled to other countries despite an INTENSE fear of flying and because of that I’ve seen some of the most wondrous places in the world, experienced other cultures, and learned so much about myself in the process.
I moved to Los Angeles alone, when I knew no one here except for my two bosses. I hadn’t lived anywhere else but Louisiana and I’d never been that far from my family and friends. I almost turned around 3 times, but you know what? I ended up losing 90 pounds that year, I shed a broken heart, learned to be independent, and gained strength I never knew I had.
I’ve always loved photography, but never thought I’d be any good at it. The first time I picked up a camera, I found new confidence new beauty in the world, and in myself.
I was afraid to share with people that I’d suffered from an eating disorder, and that I have depression, but the second I started sharing my story, I felt better, and I’ve helped others by doing so.
I went skydiving! I willingly jumped out of an airplane, and it was so freeing and eye opening and just, plain incredible. I’ve never felt peace like that, and I didn’t know just how badly I needed to feel it until I jumped. I highly recommend it.
Lauren suiting up for her sky dive!
I’ve put my trust in people even though I’ve been let down and betrayed more times than I can count. I am always afraid to let my walls down, but when I do, it helps me grow, develop more empathy, and it strengthens me.
Take the risks, y’all. Every experience is one that’s going to help you grow. Risks can be a lifeline, they can be embarrassing, they can hurt, and they can heal.
Here’s another Amy P truth bomb. It’s something I repeat to myself daily, and I chant it when I’m about to do something down right scary: “There’s power in looking silly and not caring that you do.”
What is one thing that scares you, that you hope to conquer soon? Tell us below!
Lauren loves soaking up new people and new experiences. She’s an artist, photographer, actress, and a dreamer. She usually writes in run on sentences because she lives a run on life. She tends to be dramatic, impulsive, and she eats more Mexican food than any one person probably should! Check out her blog: http://www.loloonthegogo.weebly.com
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