By: Kate Krassowski, Regular Contributor
I feel like I was your hero for a while there; I carried you around and never let you out of my sight. I fed you with my insecurities and with my anger. I made you stronger by attaching myself to you like a familiar friend. I’ve been identifying myself by you, and my inability to accept happiness as it came showed how dedicated I was to keeping you around. I couldn’t just enjoy when something good happened. I felt you hovering there like a threatening storm, and it was just a matter of time until you opened your skies and rained down.
I was so held down by the fear of what was ahead or what could happen that I allowed the sadness in from these possible scenarios in life and I forgot how to actually live in what was. I no longer wish to carry you, Unhappiness. And I no longer feel obligated to create fictitious situations for you to live in. I know one day you will creep your way back into my life. And maybe the situation will grant it because not everything is sunshine and rainbows, but when we do meet again, I want you to know that you’re not overstaying your welcome, and you’re not going to find a home here.
Today I’m happy. And today I am so thankful and at peace with where I am in my life. It’s convenient that it came around this time of year when there’s love and hopefulness in the air, but it’s not the seasons that decide our happiness. We do. We can’t control the things that happen to us, but we can control how we react to them or how long we hold on to the emotions that are keeping us captive. I’m starting to treat those emotions like an actual being. If we can turn them into something we can talk to it helps us put into words how and why we’re feeling the way we are. It also makes those emotions less scary. It makes them seem smaller somehow.
Don’t be afraid to be happy. And don’t be worried about what’s ahead. Your time is too precious to spend it dwelling in the unhappiness of what was or what will be. Allow yourself to be content and to be a light in a world where too many people are allowing those dark storms to hover. You deserve every smile, every laugh, and every joyful moment that comes your way. Shine bright, Beautiful.
Do you need to break-up with unhappiness? Consider ways you can gently and lovingly let go of what brings you down and make room for the people and things that lift you up and make you shine!
She moved to Los Angeles from Cleveland, OH after graduating with a B.A in Film Production from BGSU. She is passionate about speaking out against how women are viewed in the media and being part of changing it.
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