By: Megan Minutillo, Guest Blogger
There are two words that can make my skin crawl.
It can weigh heavy on the tongue. On the heart. On the soul.
The other word that can make my skin crawl.
I’m sorry I broke you. I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m sorry I shattered you into a million pieces. I’m sorry I’m not enough. I’m sorry I can’t handle it. I'm sorry I don’t know how to love. I’m sorry I don’t know how to feel. I’m sorry I split you in two – I’m sorry I can’t be the person you want me to be.
Sorry. Broken. Sorry. Broken. Sorry. Broken. Sorry. Broken.
It just sounds like a bunch of excuses, no?
I mean, I thought so.
I mean, I still think so.
For I’m Sorry is such an easy mask to hide behind. It’s a cloak. It’s a disguise. It’s a blanket that can smother out what’s true and real and raw.
Own want you want. Don’t apologize for it.
Own your mistakes, for you see, there is not a person in this world who’s perfect. And your scars are what you make you beautiful. Your scars are what make you strong. Your scars are make you, you.
And oh, how wonderful you are. Don’t apologize for your splendor. For your wonder. For the beauty that is you, cause you see, as that old song goes – there’s beauty in the breakdown.
Trust that there is someone out there, who loves your heart, despite its imperfections. Trust that despite the pain and solitude and heartache that you’ve endured, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Trust that sometimes, there is a person that can pick up the brokenness, if you let them. Trust in that love, for it is precious and rare and the stuff of goodness.
All this talk of goodness and brokenness makes me think of one of my favorite country songs is Bless The Broken Road, by the Rascal Flatts.
An I promise you, if you listen to it, you’ll have this thought - broken ain’t so bad.
Cause you see, it’s our scars that make us beautiful. It’s our scars that make us shine. It’s our scars that make us strong. It’s the brokenness, the imperfections, which give way to the beauty of new beginnings.
It’s the brokenness that allows us to shed the coats and skins of yesterday. It’s the brokenness that lets us rise out of the tiny bits of heartache and flourish into something and someone new…
But you gotta trust in it, you see.
You gotta trust that the heartache and pain has happened for a reason.
You gotta trust that the broken moments have brought you to a point in the road that allows you to start anew.
And you gotta have your eyes and heart and soul open to receive the love that you deserve, that you’ve always deserved.
Being in a "broken place" can be tough, but it's important to remember that in those shattered bits we plant the seeds for growth.
- Write about a time in your life that you felt broken or that left a scar on you in some way. What positives came out of that experience? How are you able to reclaim the story of your scars in a good and healing light?
Megan Minutillo is a playwright, director, and founder of the arts and education site, The Write Teacher(s). Her articles have appeared in HelloGiggles, So Worth Loving, I Am the Modern Career Girl, and Glass Heel. She is currently at work adapting her show, Ghosts in My Vodka, into a musical.
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